Neuro Tired

Today I am neuro tired.

When I am regular tired, it feels like moving through a thick fog, or becoming weighed down by a thick blanket. Thoughts and movements become slower. Bed is a welcome comfort.

With neuro tired, it’s as though a strange static takes over from the inside. My thoughts become more disoriented and disconnected. I can start feeling anxious and a little panicked. Sleep is a mandate.

If regular tired is a draining battery, neuro tired is disrupted signals.

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I often have a hint that neuro tired might be coming. Usually it is preceded by some sort of spell. A brief moment of *whoa* a day or so in advance. Or there is some big, emotional happening, and the neuro tired appears as things return to calm. Other times, it comes out of no where. I’m going a long, and slowly notice that I’m just not functioning right. I become more anxious and frustrated until, suddenly, the realization hits me.

This time, the cause is stress.

Getting things going at Cage Free Voices is a roller coaster. Lots of really encouraging enthusiasm with some really amazing people, but very few are willing to commit. Lots and lots of interest, very little follow through. It’s made me normal tired for several weeks. It makes sense that my nervous system would decide to join the party.

I think that’s enough for now. There is still plenty to do, and plenty of students to take care of. A nap would likely be a better way to spend my time that catching up on this.